I’m in a rut. And it blows. I really think I just need to quit my job and go back to school in the fall. But why can’t I do it? Why can’t I just leave and do it? I think I’m looking for an excuse; permission if you will. I don’t “quit” at anything and I think that’s what’s keeping me here. But who wants to get fired? I don’t…. really. But I do want to leave this place. I still do nothing. My boss is still a douche bag. I hate getting everyone out of the house on the days that I work because I really do feel like it is for nothing.
Also, the husband and I are back in our no sex rut. He’s facing a huge month at work & is both mentally and physically exhausted. Not that I blame him. But come on…. how long can it really take?!?! Back I go to my dreams & fantasies of Frank 🙂 Not that it’s a bad place to be but lets be realistic here. I’m more then ready for some more time with him though. A few tweeks to my schedule and I could probably make that happen. We’ll see.
We are facing a busy spring like everyone else and I just feel like the walls are closing in on me. My kids have cabin fever and are acting out in ways that make me want to cry. They are monsters.
I really need some Frank time to pull me out of this. I can’t put it on my husband to do it… he’s over loaded already & I’m carrying a lot of extra weight for him so he can keep plugging away at his career. I’m hoping the paybacks of this justify it in the end.
This is such a depressing post 😦