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Pretty much.  Six words that sum it all up today.

Today I wish we were separated.  Today I wish he wasn’t coming home tonight even though he was gone last night.  Today I want to tell the world what he did to me and our family.  Today I want his entire professional career to be knicked at the very least by his poor and selfish decisions.  Today I want her to have a harder time looking her kids in the eye.  Today I want her kids to hate her a little bit more.  Today I want my kids to show him how disappointed they are.

I am just done.  Today.  Perhaps tomorrow will be different.  It doesn’t change the fact that in 5 hours or so he’ll walk through the door and I’ll have to put on a show…  If I could only disappear before that happens.