I LOVE my new fans!! Thank you all SO much 🙂
I’m going to be doing some changes to my blog so I can include links to some new blogs I’ve started following/reading. This started out as a way for me to clear my head but I’ve started to make a few friends! Yay me! There are people as crazy as me out there 😉 OK so maybe not… they all seem more with it then I do BUT… I think maybe I do have a chance!
Anyway – I’ve been on a technology break for a while because it started to consume some of my time that didn’t exist. I got lost in the blog world & started neglecting a few items that I can afford to neglect. I’ve figured out (I think) how to fit this in with all of the other things I have going on so, I’m pretty excited.
Where am I? Well, I don’t think any further then I was before. That’s not really a bad thing though. I’ve been doing some soul searching lately. I like my life. I love my life. I forget, sometimes, that I complicate the crap out of things and if I would just sit back & live and let live it wouldn’t be so bad. I forget, sometimes, where I am and this is the time of my life (in my life?) that I’ve been waiting for. So why in God’s name am I not happy that I’m FINALLY here??! Well, this is the part I’ve fixed.
The husband. We are doing OK. He thinks I spend too much time on the computer & not enough time with the kids. He’s right. (Hence the reason for the tech break to see if he was right. Damn it I hate when he’s right!) We enjoy our date nights, even if they are at home. We enjoy our weekends together as a family. Although he just wants a break from work/kids and I am constantly planning things for all of us to do. But damn it, this is family time and it goes by all too fast not to take advantage of it.
Frank. I still love that man. Although, I’ve come to think of it as a different kind of love. I used to think of it as an actual “holy crap I’m in love with another man” type of love. But I don’t think that is it. I don’t think we could ever make anything out of this relationship. I just think we fall into the typical, “lack of something in our marriage” category. But yet, I don’t think either of us can provide each other what our spouses provide for us. Does that make sense? I don’t think I could do everything for him that his wife does for him. And the same goes for me. I don’t think he could ever do for me what my husband does for me. Strange.
Baby. Well…. who would bring baby into this situation!?! Hell no! But I do want another. So the husband and I are talking about it. I know that we need to be 100% on the money with each other before this happens. I would never do that to a child…. bring them into this world just because I think it would fix a relationship. When as that EVER worked??
I love it that I’m back and love it even more that I have a few more friends to share my ramblings with!! Muah! XOXO!